Sometimes what we think we want so bad is not necessarily what is best for us.

I thought I wanted to have a full-time job and get my career rolling.

But I’m starting to realize that maybe it isn’t what I should focus on right now. I have a beautiful 8-month old baby who needs his mama, and I should enjoy every single moment with him instead of wasting time wondering why so and so company decided not to hire me. (By the way, why do companies interview external candidates when they know that they will end up hiring an internal candidate? Stop wasting people’s time!)

Before KLM came into this world, I had no idea that he would change my life so much. In a world full of chaos and uncertainty, I know that there is a little funny guy who will always put a smile on my face.

Most mothers have no choice but to go back to work only after six weeks time off, but I am fortunate to be able to spend time and witness all of my baby’s milestones (thanks for making it possible, M.A., my husband) 

The older KLM gets, the more attached I become. I only work/teach three days a week  for a couple of hours, and on those days that I drop him off at his in-home daycare, my heart cringes every single time–even though it is literally only for a couple of hours. Just the thought of leaving him for eight hours plus now suddenly seems emotionally painful.

Those are the challenges that working mothers face–being away from their children. Being an adjunct professor has its disadvantages and advantages, but now that I’m a mother, I’m starting to realize that it might not be so bad after all. Teaching part-time gives me the opportunity to spend time with my son, while still doing what I love. Some days are more difficult than others though. So much that  I’m considering teaching only online or evenings when The Hubz is home. God knows what’s best for me and my family, so my prayer is that His will be done in our lives. He knows the desires of my heart, and my desire is to give my child the best of the best.


If you’re a mom, why/how did you decide to be a working mom or a stay at home mom?

One thought on “Sometimes what we think we want so bad is not necessarily what is best for us.

  1. When I had my son I was already staying at home. I was a full time housewife and part time student. I loved staying home. Being able to afford to stay home with him was the best thing in the world for us both. But I won’t lie, it’s was also exhausting being with a baby and then a toddler 14 hours a day with no break. When he started preschool we were both desperately ready to get some breaks from each other.

    I remember back when he was little that there was so much animosity between women making different choices for themselves and their families – so baffling. Everyone has different circumstances and as you pointed out – there are a lot of parents who don’t have a choice but to work. I have mad respect for all the parents out there who don’t even have the luxury of making that choice and who make it work anyway. I also respect parents who can choose not to work but want and need to be working at least part time.

    I think that whatever you decide is best for YOU is probably going to be best for your little guy too. When a mom feels fulfilled and content – she passes that good feeling to her child. And if you have the loving support of your husband no matter what you decide is best – then you really can’t go wrong.

    As one of your twitter bffs – I think you’re already rocking the mom gig and you may need to try some different situations as you go along – maybe you discover you need more hours of teaching mixed in to feel right or maybe you do the night or online teaching thing – whatever you do I believe you’re going to rock that too. xoxo


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